When I was getting this blog redesigned, I was questioned on what my new tagline would be. Not having much time, I sent “because life without contentment is just chaos”. I never really liked it, but wasn’t sure how to change it. Until today. I am slowly learning my way around this new blogging world that is wordpress. Anyway, on with the story…..
My new tagline is “because true happiness begins with contentment”.
Almost from the moment I gave my designer the first tagline, I knew that it wasn’t right for what I was attempting to convey on this blog.
So, the story behind “because true happiness begins with contentment” is this……..
A few years ago, I was extremely into reading. Our finances were virtually non-existent so I spent lots of time at home. To fill time, I read. I’ve always been a reader, but even more so then. Anyway, I had gotten very into reading Amish fiction. Slowly, I began mimicking my life after those I was reading about. I began craving simplicity. I began craving the quiet, slow, reflective life that they live.
I read this line in one of those books and it was a light bulb moment………
Contentment isn’t having what you want, it’s wanting what you have.
It was one of those situations that stops you right where you are and you read and re-read over and over saying, “yes, yes, yes”.
I was not content. I didn’t know half of the time where our grocery money for the next week was going to come from. Starting a business from scratch is not easy….and that’s being very positive. However, when we took the plunge to start our own business, we knew that money would be extremely tight for a while and we were willing to take that chance. We prayed about it and were very confident that is what God’s will was for our lives.
Reading those words gave me a whole new perspective. Regardless of what money was or wasn’t coming in, we never went hungry. Our lights were never shut off. We always had heat. We also still had internet, cell phones, satellite tv, etc. How could I look at my life and desire anything more than I already had? I still had way more than I should’ve.
There was absolutely no reason to be wanting more when I already had way more than I needed.
When I started being thankful for what I had, that is when contentment took over. I was no longer worried about money. I knew that God would provide for our needs. My stress level went way down and my attitude did a complete turnaround. I was happy because I knew we’d be ok.
I had a new appreciation for all of the extras that I’ve been given.
That is the first time in my life that I was completely and truly happy. My focus went from what this world deemed necessary to what God deemed necessary. I cared more about filling myself spiritually, physically, and emotionally than what we could buy next.
I was completely driven to spend my time and energy on things that were lasting…..building relationships with my children, being there to support my husband, making connections with very good friends, sharing my stories of what I was learning to encourage others, etc.
My shift in focus to be content with what I already had changed my life. It changed my family. It changed the atmosphere of my home.
Because of all that my family has been through in the last 3 years, I’ve lost that contentment. I’ve lost what makes me happy to the core. I’ve gotten caught up again in wanting (and trying to fill voids with) stuff.
I am incredibly fortunate to have again been given an amazing love and I have wasted it by making everyone around me miserable.
My amazing husband doesn’t even know the real me because I’ve been so hung up on things that don’t even matter…..things of this world, not things that have eternal significance. I’m confident that I can get back to the wife and mom that I know I can be and once again be focused on things that really matter……faith, family, and friends. I’m excited to show him what he’s been missing out on…..stay tuned as I re-learn how to be content with what I have, not what I think I want, because TRUE HAPPINESS BEGINS WITH CONTENTMENT.
Have you had an “ah-ha” moment when it comes to happiness or contentment? What was it? Share in the comments below!