If you missed week one, you can read that here. Now on to week two’s challenge:
This is a topic near and dear to my heart. I could’ve easily lost my hubby to a work accident a little over a year into our marriage. While that opened my eyes to how short life can be, I still fell back into a pattern of selfishness after he healed. We had some very hard years following that time. It always fell back to finances, which were frequently non-existent. We were aware that our fights almost always fell back to a money issue, but I think I also liked to fight because I had this insatiable desire to be right (and be in control).
My need to be in control (of everything) was causing me to base my treatment of my hubby on works (what he did for me or how he treated me). I’m not even sure when it hit me, but one day I had a realization.
If one day he didn’t come home, would I have to live with regrets of how or what I did (or didn’t do) for him? For example:
- Would getting up to pack his lunch be a big deal?
- Would I long to rub his back….just one more time? (He has back issues due to the accident and I too often gripe about this never ending task)
- Would I find the energy to ‘have fun in the bedroom’….just one more time?
- Would I drop what I was doing to help him with whatever….just one more time?