In my last post, I wrote about change. About how when you listen to God, He will alert you when change is coming. Well, my friends, change is coming. My life has taken many twists and turns in the last few months and it’s probably time to update you!
A little background information……
I have struggled with weight issues for as long as I can remember. Even back to high school, when I was actually thin, I thought I was fat. I was always overly concerned with how I looked. I have an athletic build and am fairly tall for a girl at about 5’9″, so I always weighed more than my friends even though I was far from the *fat* that I thought I was.
My weight obsession continued through out my 20’s as I was having babies. I always got into habits of working out and trying to eat healthier, but they just never stuck. There was only one time that I ever really significantly lost weight, but within a couple years it was back.
For the last 10-15 years, even during my times of trying to lose weight, it would just never come off. I work out very hard and eat healthy most of the time (during these “phases”), so when nothing happened on the scales, it was very frustrating. I always ended up just giving up.
I had one year about 3 years ago, where I worked out 1/2 hr to 1 hr, 5 days a week for an ENTIRE year. I watched what I ate and nothing happened…..in a year……talk about giving up! I was so done with it. I just sort of threw in the towel and my weight slowly crept up more. I had no issue gaining but once it was there, there was no getting it off.
I knew something had to be wrong, but natural doctors are expensive and conventional doctors want to medicate. So I was just sort of stuck where I was.
Then I found Revelation Wellness. I had seen some videos about RevWell a year or so ago, but just blew it off. I’m certainly not a fitness instructor. I’m crazy self conscious and while I can talk in front of people, leading a fitness class is way out of my comfort zone. But a few months later, I had RevWell pop up in my feed again. I started following their website and got on the Facebook page. I did a few of their programs. I started with Weigh Less to Feed More. It was life changing.
Weigh Less to Feed More (WL2FM) is a 8 week program that combines your faith and your fitness to get to the bottom of your weight issues. If you are overweight, there are deeper issues than you just liking food. There is a reason that you overeat. There is a reason that food is your comfort, celebration, peace, whatever. There is also the flip side of being dominated by working out and a clean diet. Neither extreme is healthy. WL2FM goes into the deep spaces and helps you dig out what it is in your soul that is lacking. What lies you are believing about yourself that manifest in your thoughts about your body and the way you look. If you are willing to partner with God to clean out the junk that is holding you down, this program will do it for you. It’s absolutely not about the weight, or even the food for that matter, it’s about the heart. It’s about the lies that you believe about yourself. It’s about getting healthy and whole so that you can serve others. If your heart is clean, your body will naturally fall in line.
After that was done, I was hooked. It made me aware of so many things and I just couldn’t shake the feeling that I was right where I needed to be. So I signed up for RevWell instructor training. It was a LOT of doubting, questioning, praying, crying, second guessing, and talking to others. I was not sure that I wanted to commit to something that was so out of my league (and fairly expensive), but the one constant of RevWell is LOVE>FEAR.
Fear is what was holding me back. Fear of my failure, fear of what everyone would think, fear of giving up on something again, fear of not being “healed”, fear of rejection. But, at RevWell, everyone is welcome. You don’t have to be a super model. You don’t have to have rhythm. You don’t have to be working out every day. You don’t have to look the part. Revelation Wellness instructors are of all shapes and sizes. All different backgrounds. All have different directions after RevWell Instructor training. Some won’t do anything with RevWell but be marvelously ruined by how God works through it. It changes you, your family, and hopefully, your community whether in person or online. I have yet to see anyone come out of training and say that it wasn’t worth it. Who has a 100% success rating???? God is working in RevWell!!
I am in the middle of my training right now and will attend final retreat in April to get my certification. When complete, I will have over 200 hours of training to be a Rev Well Instructor. We are trained in faith, fitness, and nutrition. None of RevWell focuses of food, or exercise for that matter, though it is a “faith and fitness” minestry. The tagline is “Love God, Get Healthy, Be Whole, Love Others” and isn’t that what it’s all about?
One of the things RevWell offers is free podcasts. They are all amazing but one in particular is changing my life. Three weeks ago, Alisa Keeton (the founder of RevWell) talked to Dr. Jana Joshu Grimm about gut health. Specifically, candida overgrowth.
I have researched this many times, but the diet is so restrictive that without a confirmation that is what I had going on in my body and my cause for unsuccessful weight loss, I didn’t commit to follow an anti candida diet. After this podcast, I scheduled an appt with Dr. Jana. I had almost every single simptom on the list for having candida overgrowth (yeast overgrowth in your stomach).
If you have an unhealthy gut, the rest of you will be unhealthy. There is so much research surrounding this topic, my head is spinning. Candida overgrowth is responsible for SO MANY of the common ailments of today. I won’t go into all of that now, but I will more than likely be discussing more about it in the future.
Anyway, Dr Jana put me on a very strict anti-candida diet. No sugar, grains, dairy, coffee (caffine), starchy veggies, alcohol, or fruit. You might be saying “What’s left”. I was too. But I’m also ready to be well. I’m ready to feel well and I have learned so much about myself throughout this process. I can have meat, veggies, eggs, nuts, and beans. I am also on a ton of natural supplements. She also told me to stop working out because my adrenals and thyroid are really bad. I was actually doing myself more harm by working out.
God has been telling me to be still for months. I don’t listen. A few weeks ago, right before I talked to Dr. Jana, I reinjured my back. I am thinking that it was just a way for God to get my attention.
“Um, hello……I told you to be still”.
While this diet is temporary and I am dying to get back to working out. I know that my body needs to heal. I know that there are better things in store for me and if I’m not well, I won’t have the strength to do them.
I was eating pretty well before I started this diet and I am so ready to get back to all whole foods. I’ve never been so excited to have sweet potato fries and apples and pineapples.
Over the last few years, I’ve struggled to find my place in this world. I’ve struggled to hear what God wants from me. I’ve been trying to do things on my own and it’s just not working. I am starting to see that RevWell is exactly where I am supposed to be, even given my doubts. Even given my tendencies to want to give up. I have been fighting and pushing God away all while trying to “find His will for my life”. I can’t find it if I’m not searching for Him, and RevWell is helping me to do that.
It is helping me to see the lies that have run my life for so very long. It’s helping me to see who I am in God’s eyes. It’s helping me to tune out the world’s voices of not good enough, fat, too much/not enough, ugly, worthless, failure. These are just some of the lies that I’ve believed for so long and they have shaped who I am. But not anymore.
I’m not sure what my life looks like after training yet, but I know one thing for sure…..it will be different. I am healing mind, body, soul. I am getting free and I intend to stay that way. I am not looking to be pleasing in the world’s eyes anymore. I am slowly changing out my house to include more natural remedies. I am learning about oils. I am getting rid of chemicals as much as possible. I am learning about the effects of candida overgrowth and what you can do to naturally reverse it. I am counting the days to be able to be working out again and I am so excited to be released to eat God given food.
Things are just changing all the way around. I feel like there will be some direction in my life. I feel that there are so many out there that need this message that I will be able to share. I have always felt that sharing my stories can help others and I pray that figuring out this gut issue and completing training will only further my reach and ability to give. Please pray that I can finish all of this strong and that God gives me clear direction on where He wants me next!
Stick around, it’s going to be a wild ride 🙂 Please leave any questions that you might have about all of this in the commments and I’ll do my best to answer them (maybe in a video 😉 )!
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