Have you ever felt totally excited about something new only to have the doubts and fears creep in as soon as you start to take action?
That has been my world lately. I am finally in a place that I absolutely love. I’m happy with my body. It’s not where I want it to be, but I have determined to love it into shape instead of hate it into submission. I am happy with where my business is going. I’m happy that the sun is finally shining and it’s warming up here in mid-Michigan. I am just living in a place of gratitude and it’s amazing.
I’ve finally learned how to capture thoughts that don’t serve me and how to turn them around. I’ve learned to call out the lies that I hear in my head for what they are and replace them with truth. I’ve learned how to stop living life as a victim.
But I’ve also been fighting fear and wanting to shrink back. As soon as I started to put it out there that I’m working on an ebook, opposition and chatter started in my mind. I started hearing that I shouldn’t be writing a book on finally falling off the weight wagon for good. I don’t look the part. I’m still overweight. I’m still figuring out what works for my body.
My thoughts too often go to, “You are being bold about this, but people are not going to want what you have because you clearly haven’t figured it out. You wouldn’t be overweight if you were equipped to coach those to a better lifestyle around diet and exercise”.
I have thankfully been able to keep pulling myself back from these defeating thoughts, but it’s a constant struggle. It makes me want to pull back and hide in my corner. Quietly give advice when it’s asked for, but not put myself out there.
It’s my M.O.
Get excited about something…..start to get out there…..get scared……back down. Wash, rinse, repeat.
Not this time.
I have invested HOURS and HOURS of training and research. I have gotten certified in exercise nutrition. I have gotten certified as a Revelation Wellness instructor, which teaches faith then fitness ( it’s about so much more than food). I’ve read book after book that taught me about mindset and mental blocks and scientific ways that your mind affects your body, and other issues that may keep you from progressing into your best life. I’ve learned several different ways of eating and exercising and why they are good for this person but not for that person. Everyone is so different. Needs are different. Mindsets are different. Goals are different.
It takes TIME for you to have a lasting change.
I’m impatient. I want to grab on to something and change it right.now.
I heard a talk today about planting a seed, then continually digging it up and replanting it somewhere else because you think the soil is better somewhere else. You never give the seed a chance to grow and bloom. You just keep starting over and starting over and starting over because you aren’t patient enough to facilitate real, lasting change.
It’s ok that I’m not at my goal weight. I have to be ok that people that I know in real life will read this and see me and wonder how I am a nutrition coach when I’m not rocking 6pk abs. I have to push on and be brave and bold.
I know that there are people out there that are looking for what I have to offer. I know people are sick of diets, sick of starting over, sick of being the same year after year. I also know that most people will not sacrifice what it takes to be a swimsuit model and that they need a coach. They need a hand to hold that cheers them on and pushes them to keep going when they are finding what works for them. What way of eating. What exercise. What sacrifices are worth it and what ones aren’t.
I have been on the diet wagon for far too long. As someone who hates rules and hates to be told what to do, I find it hard to stick to a “cookie cutter diet”. Does every way of eating work for someone? Yep. Will it work for you? Maybe. Question is, are you willing to commit to the trade-off? Maybe you are, maybe you aren’t…..but where do you go from there?
Maybe you don’t want or don’t have time to research all the things that contribute to your best life…..best weight, body composition, exercise, way of eating, mindset.
Lucky for you, this is my jam. I am absolutely going to keep learning and growing and changing. I am going to find a way that I can serve anyone who I am blessed enough to help. I am going to keep putting myself out there and I am going to keep sharing my journey.
Someday, you will see me at my goal weight but until then, you will see my ups and downs. My trials and my re-dos. My good days and my bad days. I’m not starting over on Monday, I’m finding what will be sustainable for my body. I want to be crazy active. I want to travel and have adventures. I want to be able to live my life and not be held back by bad health. I want good mental health and bouncing from system to system does NOT give me good mental health. It leaves me frustrated and wanting to just throw in the towel. I’m not doing that anymore.
So, I challenge you, if you are tired of hiding in the shadows, step into the light. If you can serve (we all have gifts), serve. It doesn’t matter if you haven’t arrived yet…..none of us have. Even if something is working for you right now, chances are it won’t in a year or two…..we need different things at different times in our lives. Life ebbs and flows. Be pliable. Move with life. Share where you are right now….even if you don’t look the part. Even if you are still learning. Even if it makes you have diarrhea. Even if your voice shakes, share your truth. It will help you attract your tribe.
I am finding food and exercise freedom. I am loving what I am learning and how my mind affects my body. I’m loving figuring out what works best for MY body. I am loving the grace that I’m finding in going slow and seeing what effects my body and how. I don’t want to jump around anymore, I want to treat my body well. I want to practice patience…..my hard place. I want to be disciplined when I need to be and enjoy a little more freedom when my body is calling for that. And I want to share it with the hope of helping others overcome as well.
If you are tired of the yo-yo dieting or if you are finally ready for lasting change, reach out and see if my coaching will be a fit for you. If you aren’t quite there but you are interested in knowing first when my new ebook is released, message me and I will add you to the list.
It’s time to take back the negative thoughts that plague you. It’s time to stop the obsession with food. It’s time to stop following the masses and jumping from program to program. It’s time to find YOU and to be unapologetically YOU. It’s time to stop hiding in the shadows. You have a purpose and a place in this world and you have gifts to share. Join me to get healthy and whole so that you, too, can live out your gifts.
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