I am definitely not a makeup and hair kind of girl. Never have been.
A dress???? No way!
However, lately, I have been wanting to change it up. I’m not sure what is going on, but I am having a desire for something more than old jeans and hoodies.
I want to be comfortable in my own skin. I want to be able to go to my closet pick out something, put it on, and comfortably wear it.
I am still not into a ton of makeup, but a little more than my usual eyeliner, powder, and mascara wouldn’t be so bad. I am still totally into wearing a hat, but am excited for longer hair (maybe) and some cute earrings to go with it. I’ve also discovered that I love my nails done. I don’t like them long, but I do love them painted!
While none of this seems out of the ordinary to most, it’s a huge change for me. I have never cared if my makeup was minimal. I’ve never thought about what I have on………but one thing that I keep noticing over and over is that the women that inspire me always look put together.
Now, do I feel that I need full makeup and business wear to be inspirational? No, but I am realizing that, for me, I feel like I can accomplish more if I take some time to look the part.
I want people to feel comfortable with me. I don’t want to be over the top by any means. I still want to look approachable. I am honestly just noticing cute shirts and nice jeans, or long tunics over leggings with boots……just something a little more done up.
Much of me still feels that accessories and different clothes are a waste of money, but I keep finding myself noticing these things on other people. My brain keeps saying, “Why would you waste time and money for a bracelet or scarf when you are just going to be at home? Who takes time for earrings when no one but your family will see them?”, but the desire is still there, so my question is why not?
So, where does all of this take me? Honestly, I don’t know. I keep seeing YouTube videos that are saying “Get yourself together first thing in the morning, you will be more productive throughout the day”…….I’m beginning to believe it.
The first step is to continue to work out and get serious about my eating habits. I have noticed that when I have “real” clothes on (not yoga pants or stretchy shorts), I tend to move less because my clothes aren’t comfortable. I remember when I was thinner that I had way more energy and did more things because I was comfortable in whatever I had on. I want that again.
I have always wanted to look this way or that way for others, but I am being selfish this time. I want the energy back. I want to get rid of the disgust that happens every time I put on something that doesn’t fit the way I want it to. (I know that the disgust is a heart issue and I’m working on that, too 🙂 ) I want to feel good so that I can give the best I have to my husband, kids, and others in my life.
At the end of the day, I am slowly trying to figure out what God has for me in this life. Praying for direction and discernment for what He wants me to be doing, but it starts with me. I can’t give my best if I’m not at my best!
Maybe this desire to start putting my best foot forward is leading up to something else. Maybe this is just my way of telling myself that I have more to offer than what I’ve been putting out lately. Maybe this will be a light bulb moment in my story……who knows? At this point, I’m just going to keep creeping along and incorporating what I’m feeling.
Life is about so much more than what you look like, but if a little eyeshadow and some cute earrings make me feel confident, what’s so bad about that?
Do you find yourself caring about things that you never did before? Did you make the changes? What makes you feel confident in yourself?