I’ve been noticing lately that when I’m off social media for any length of time I come up with tons of ideas. I come up with blog ideas, business ideas, courses, book outlines, website developments; you name it, I’m on it. I am absolutely convinced that it will be amazing, it will work, and people will love it.
Then I get back on social media.
Too soon, my doubts and fears start creeping back in. I make a post that has my absolute best intentions at the heart of it, only to have it stomped on by someone offended. I desperately want to retreat. I want to delete the post. I don’t want to put myself out there.
What if I’m wrong? What if I am pushing on toward this conviction but it’s not right? What if the argument is valid?
Over the last year, I’ve dealt with a LOT of heart junk. I’ve confronted a LOT of lies that I’ve believed about myself for a very long time. I’ve healed some spaces that were very raw and I still continue to heal some areas. I’ve come a very long way. However, it only takes a minute to start sliding back down into that pit.
It only takes one comment to put you back into that place of doubt……then it snowballs.
What if no one really wants what I’m about to offer (that I’ve spent a YEAR preparing for)?
What if this isn’t really what the Lord is calling me to do? What if I heard Him wrong?
What if I give this my all—time, finances, hustle—and it fails?
What if I offer a solution that people disagree with and they call me out on it?
Maybe there are already too many people doing this, maybe there is no room for another
Maybe I should just keep my mouth shut and focus on easier things. Things that aren’t sensitive and controversial and insanely personal
This happens for a few minutes, then the new Nicole kicks in and says, “NOPE….NOT THIS TIME”
People WILL disagree with me. That is ok.
People WILL think that my way is ineffective, dumb, or too hard. That is ok.
People WILL balk at my offerings, particularly if they are offended by them because it could help them but they aren’t willing to do the hard things to go down that path with me. That is ok.
People WILL look at me and question my expertise because I haven’t “arrived” yet.
But you know what???!!! THAT IS OK.
I feel VERY strongly that I am walking down the correct path. I feel that I WILL help people become healthy and whole. I KNOW that my story will help people.
I may not have all the details laid out yet (which hurts my OCD tendencies), but I have committed to press on anyway. I will share my journey. I will teach as I learn. I will be diligent because I know that there will be people watching and I want them to say because of you, I didn’t quit.
I have *always* been a quitter. But things are different now. I am in a different place. I have goals set by the Almighty. He will bring the right people to me. He will make my paths straight as I surrender them to Him.
I am still on this earth because I have a purpose to serve. If I don’t fulfill my purpose, others will not fulfill their purpose either.
Revelation Wellness‘ theme is this:
- LOVE GOD (√)
- GET HEALTHY (working on it)
- BE WHOLE (working on this too, but getting there)
- LOVE OTHERS (so much more than ever before!)
I have been shown all of these things. But if I allow old lies or other’s voices to take over my newly found freedom, how many more people will I keep from finding their own freedom that they can then pass on to others?
If I let fear and worry dictate my days, I am COSTING others their FREEDOM!
So, as I learn more and put myself out there more please know that anything and everything that I post is rooted in LOVE. If it offends you, I am genuinely sorry, but I will not shrink back. I will not hide. The Lord showed me things within me that I know others struggle with too and by talking about that struggle, some will be offended. That is ok.
It is my prayer as I push on toward this new adventure that others will watch my journey with open eyes and hearts. That strongholds will be broken. That made up rules and bondage will be cast away. That they will be open to change and a journey towards freedom—in food, heart issues, body image, old hurts, lies that have been believed, bitterness that is eating away, etc.
Do you get all excited then shrink back when opposition comes?
If you could do anything, what would it be? What is keeping you from doing it—is it rooted in fear?
What are you scared of? How do you feel about the prospect that if you aren’t living out your God-given purpose then someone else isn’t living theirs either?
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