I have always been an indecisive person. I am the one that, when someone says, “Where should we eat?” I ALWAYS say, “I don’t care, it doesn’t matter”….and I usually mean it. I am just not good at taking the drivers seat and deciding what I want to do, I am an excellent follower. I like to just blend in and not have the attention on me, in fact, I will do things I don’t want to do so I don’t ‘rock the boat’.
This reminds me of a guy that I used to work with. The very first day that he came to work, we had to move what was, up until then, my office around to make room for him (we were going to have a shared office space). He was a very confident, older (my dad’s age), take charge kind of man. It was very intimidating to me. He was throwing around some rearranging ideas with my boss and I threw in my thoughts. He said, “Well, is that what you want to do”? I, being typical me, said, “I don’t care, whatever”. He said, “Well, do you want it this way or that way…….Just make a decision”! Very put out and irritated that he would dare be so cocky and arrogant as to ask me that I said, “I’ll just go over there”, which, comically, was in the corner. LOL!!! I will never forget that day. Since then every time I say, “I don’t care” to something I remember that. I find that I don’t say it very often. I might still give my opinion like a suggestion, but I don’t usually say that I don’t care.
It definitely takes time to change something that is, essentially, who you are but I believe it’s worth it. No one that sits back and watches life happen around them ever really fulfills their dreams, they live thru everyone else’s. I am all about supporting your spouse, kids, whatever and being their cheering section but you also have to be able to make your life what you desire it to be. I LOVE being home with my kids and hubby, but I also want to make contributions to my family’s financial side. I want to be able to bring my hubby home instead of traveling for work. These are things that I DO care about, very much so. It is the reason I am building this business. I am tired of letting life pass me by. I can do more for my family than just clean their toilets and fold their laundry. That’s why this biz is so awesome, I can take care of my family AND have a business. I can do retailing, fundraising, team building, or any combination of the three. I can do it online, offline, or a combination of both. I can work full or part time. I can do all of this with very little investment. I finally decided to take charge of my life and stop answering, “I don’t care”. I DO CARE…..if I don’t decide for myself, no one will decide for me. Are you making the decisions for your own life, or letting someone else dictate it to you? Take control of your life and make it what you envision it to be!!!