Well, my plans for the day have changed. I was supposed to be chasing coyotes with my hubby and two little ones. However, my baby started getting sick last night. I think she’s on the mend, but instead of being in a little truck with her, I decided that it was safer to stay home. LOL!!!!
I am so thankful to be able to have that option to stay home with her and not to have to find someone else to comfort her. I will never get these (sometimes gross, hehehehehe) moments back. I have grown to realize that I missed some of these moments with my bigger girls. We started having children young, on purpose, but we were young nonetheless. I often wonder if I would have been a different mom had I waited until later in my life to have children. I love my life and wouldn’t change it, I just wonder how it might have been different. I absolutely see myself reacting differently to things with my little girls than I did with my big girls. I believe that I am slower to criticize (big hurdle for me) and quicker to love and give praise. As I often say, I am a work in progress…and will always be, but I feel that I am getting better.
I posted about an amazing site yesterday about living a simple life. I feel that often times we (wives, mothers, friends, etc) are looked down upon as not as good a mom or lazy because our lives are simple. My girls play softball and will probably will do more sports as they grow, but we have a TON of downtime in our house. We are happy to have completely open schedules. We hunt a lot and spend a lot of time outside playing. We read a lot of books and watch movies. You could say we are sort of ‘anti-social’, which isn’t the case. We just don’t enjoy the hustle and bustle of crazy-full lives. We enjoy spending time with friends or visiting family….but that is what we do and have the time available to do so. You can’t ever get time back with your small children (or big children, for that matter), your elderly grandparents, your parents, friends, spouse, whoever is important to you. Our lives are the best they can be when we take time to just purely ‘live’. Don’t fill your time with things that won’t matter later just to be able to say that you have a full calendar. Cherish the things that matter, time goes to fast and you won’t ever get it back!