Many of you know that 2 weeks ago I left for Arizona to finish up my Revelation Wellness training with a week long retreat, held in Williams, AZ. It was the culmination of 9 weeks of at home study preparing us for the week of intensive training and getting comfortable being uncomfortable.
It was the first time that I had traveled alone and it was scary and exilarating all at the same time. I was traveling into the unknown. While I had spent the previous 9 weeks on zoom calls with 20ish of these women (and one guy) that I was traveling to see, I still had no idea what to expect. I had seen videos of retreat and testimonials of it’s amazing life changing power, but it was still a bit scary.
I’m not sure how to even sum up what it was like up on the mountain. Words escape me. Here are a few pictures to give you an idea of how gorgeous this place was.
I went up on that mountain expecting God to move and He did just that. I came home with a different perspective, body image, and purpose to my life. While I don’t have the details totally worked out yet, I have a vision that I didn’t have before.
When we first got to retreat, Alisa (RevWell founder) told us that it wasn’t retreat until someone wanted to go home. Tuesday was that day for me. I was just over it. I didn’t want to do what we were doing anymore. It seemed very fitness focused to me and I wanted more of the “heart work”. I wanted to learn how to help people remove the gunk in their soul that held them back, physically and emotionally. I didn’t care about all of the workshops teaching me how to teach fitness. I told my cabin mates that I was really trying to have a good attitude, but I just wasn’t feeling it. I told them that I was keeping an open mind, but that I didn’t ever see myself teaching fitness. I was just fine pushing myself physically and I had no interest in teaching others. I was just feeling that I was doing things that I didn’t really care about.
Where are you, God? This isn’t what I signed up to do. I know that this ministry uses fitness as a platform to biblical health and wholeness, but why is there so much fitness? What about the heart work? When do we get to do that? That is my thing.
I am going to go more into what happened on Wednesday in another post, but let’s just say that after Wednesday morning, I didn’t want to go home anymore. Things changed. God opened more doors in my heart. Stay tuned to future posts to find out what that was!
During one of the first weeks of our home study, we were assigned prayer partners. This was mine. Her name is Beth and she is amazing! God definitely had a hand in partnering her and I together and she was a blessing throughout this experience.
We had a lot of encouragement back and forth, we were comfortable sharing our junk and real feelings with each other, and we gained much insight in our conversations. It was a pleasure beginning this journey with her and I am blessed and thankful to call her a new friend.
When we first got to Arizona, most of us just assumed that we’d be paired with our call groups (the ones that we had been sharing life with for 9 weeks). We had bonded with these groups and friendships had already been formed. Most of us were sad and a little apprehensive when we found out that wasn’t how we got paired for our small groups at retreat. Leadership had decided to pair us in regions so that going forward, we could group together and keep RevWell moving forward.
Me being me, balked at the idea and tried to hide my irritation at this. I loved my call group and felt comfortable with them. Knowing that I was heading out on a Christian retreat, I knew that the feeling that I was having were not of the Lord and that I needed to get myself back to a good place, but I was disappointed, to say the least.
God always knows what he’s doing. The leadership for RevWell are some of the most prayerful people that I’ve ever met and I know without a shadow of a doubt that we were prayed into those groups. My small group turned out to be exactly what I needed. They were raw and open, insightful and thought-provoking, encouraging and comforting, real and honest. I can honestly say that I was right where I needed to be and that I am blessed to have been able to do that week with them.
When trying to figure out how I was going to process and share all that happened in this training time, I started writing out titles for future blog posts. The titles are all sayings that we heard time and time again throughout training and retreat and they have made a huge impression in my heart, mind, and life. Over the next week or two, I am going to break down my journey through training, retreat, and what I see in my future through these titles.
The titles for these posts will be:
- #youbeyouboo – Do the hard things
- Laugh. Cry. Eat. Retreat
- Don’t look left or right unless to bless
- Let. It. Out
- Stay open minded. Be Pliable
- Pray. Be Still/Sensitive to the Spirit
- The harvest is plenty but the workers are few
- Deliver the pizza
- Stay to the Right
- Be bold. Be brave.
- Get Comfortable being Uncomfortable
There may be more as I continue to unwind and unpack my mind from the week full of goodness, but these are a good start. I will also be sharing in depth what vision I see for my life heading forward. It’s not all clear right now, but I have and idea. I’m trusting God and taking the first step out of the boat. He will provide more insight when I need it. I am praying for doors to open and to be so huge that I have no choice but to step through them, even if I can’t see past the doorway to see what is on the other side. I trust that this experience will not be wasted and I’m excited for the process. (This is so out of the ordinary for me, normally I need the end product and tremble in the process……not anymore 🙂 )
Thank you for all who supported me in this, be it with financial help, encouragement, or prayer. It was an incredible journey and it’s just getting started. I hope you will follow along with me!
I cannot recommend Revelation Fitness enough, if nothing else, go check them out and see if the Lord is calling you to this space. This ministry is so very needed. You will not regret stepping out in faith.
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