I took 2 of these pictures last week and never followed through on posting them. I was all amped up after a great workout and full of inspiration……then talked myself out of it.
Then 3 of them I took this morning. Again, after a great workout. I think of these great little tidbits while I’m working out, then by the time I’m done and snap pics I’ve analyzed them to death.
“No one wants to see these”
“Why are you posting this?”
“If people really want to be inspired, they will look inside themselves”
“Look at your arm flub”
“You sweat really bad”
“These juicy tidbits that I’ve come up with during my workout would be amazing done in a video…….AFTER I shower”
“You don’t have anything to say that hasn’t been said 1000 times”
*Stand this way* *fix your shirt* *move to better lighting* *pull your bra up so your back/side fat is covered*
Why? Seriously, why do I (we) do this to ourselves? Why are we so mean to ourselves when we’d never be that judgemental to someone else? Why do we quietly shame ourselves into keeping quiet when we have a message to share? A journey to share that may be helpful to someone else?
What ends up happening is that when I get a thought or idea that needs to be shared, I make myself wait until I’m “presentable”…….then things happen, the day gets away from me, and it never happens.
My word for 2018 is DILIGENT. I have a habit of starting things that never come to fruition. I want to accomplish things but then fall short……year after year after year. If you look back through my blog posts, it’s always the same. I’ll do better this time.…..and I do……for a while.
I’m not sure what changed in me in 2017, but I am on fire for change this year. I actually wrote down goals, broke them down into ACTIONABLE steps, then took the steps and SCHEDULED them into my day. They WILL happen.
I’ve decided that I thrive on routine. The spontaneous part of me screams for anything goes days, but I’ve learned that if I don’t hold myself to a schedule…..nothing happens. Nothing gets accomplished. I waste day after day after day with nothing to show for it.
One of my goals is to be done with nutrition training by my birthday in July. At that time, I will start accepting clients into my business that combines faith with fitness. It combines body movement and nutrition coaching along with personal development and finding out why you struggle in this area. I found so much freedom this last year and, while I’m still working out the kinks for my own body, I can’t wait to start helping others find that freedom also.
I’ve also discovered that I need accountability. That is why I feel the need to post pics like those above. I feel that I need to share that I am, indeed, doing the work to get to where I want to be. I feel that by posting in my uncomfortable place (look), and sharing things that aren’t always comfortable, some of the places that are still broken in me will start to heal. And maybe, just maybe, I will inspire someone to step outside of their comfort zone too.
Progress is made in the uncomfortable. CHANGE is accomplished in the uncomfortable. Community is formed when someone can look at you being brave and feel something in them that cries out to be brave as well. We were built for community.
So, from now on, get ready to see some unflattering pics of me (that I resolve to take ONCE….not 10 til I get the one that is just right). Get ready to read some uncomfortable realizations. And, can I ask you to get ready to be brave as well? To share your struggles, hurts, victories, lightbulb moments? To reach out to those that are headed in the same direction as you are or maybe those that have already been down that path and can help you see the light at the end of the tunnel? That change really is possible?
My goals for this year seem lofty yet attainable. Stick around as I prepare to get comfortable being uncomfortable. It’s going to be a fun ride! My shirt in the pics says Freedom Fighter and that is what I intend to be!
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