I’m not sure what brought it on, but a couple weeks ago as we left the marina on a charter boat for a salmon fishing trip I had a thought.
I love this. I love being able to do things like this. I want to bring the girls to do this. I’m tired of living a sheltered life. I want to be able to AFFORD to get out of my bubble of my house and little town. I’m sick of saying, “I wish we had the money to……….”. I’m tired of being comfortably uncomfortable and I’m ready for a change. Why not me, why not now? I am the ONLY one holding me back and I’m done with it. It’s time to take action and build the life I desire.
I’ve traveled more in the last few years of my life than I ever have. And I discovered that I love it. I love seeing new places and trying new things. I love taking in new sights and challenging myself to do things that I’ve never done before.
A little back story. My 1st husband and I never traveled. We were very active, but it was always in our little bubble of the small town that we both grew up in. We were insanely happy, but just never had the extra money to do any traveling. I learned to be content to just be at home or close to home. I loved that we camped for free on state land with no amenities. I loved that my kids just got to be kids with no technology or distractions like tv or phones. I was very content with that period of my life. We were happy with what we had and made the most of the little things.
I, however, always had a longing to travel. Not necessarily abroad, but at least to different states and maybe to a few Carribean destinations. I’ve also wanted to go to New Zealand for several years. A pipe dream at that point in my life. I knew where we were at, financially, and my husband was the epitome of “happy with nothing”. He taught me how to be content with our less than exciting finances and though we were working to be able to do some different things, it just wasn’t in the cards at that time. And we were both ok with that.
After 4 long years of trying to find myself after my 1st husband passed away, I’m finally starting to crawl out of that hole. While I have always looked strong and ok on the outside, on the inside a storm was brewing at all times and I couldn’t seem to get away from it. I tried several different things but none of it made me feel like I was “at home”. None of it felt like it was right for me. I was just very confused about who I was and where I was going.
Then I started traveling………..
I was beside myself with excitement when I had to get my passport to go to Canada bear hunting in June 2015. When we went to the Bahamas with my family for my sister’s wedding in 2015, I discovered that I LOVE flying. Then my first solo trip (which was WAY out of my comfort zone) to Arizona for Revelation Wellness training in April of this year. And just recently, to Utah for the most amazing conference I’ve ever been to (for my business).
With each trip, I grew in boldness. I’m discovering parts of me that I never knew were there. It’s crazy to me how different I feel and how I’ve been changing in the last year. It has been an amazing year of discovering myself and what I want in this life.
I was totally content in my past. I was happy and I wouldn’t change it for anything. But I’m different now. I almost feel like I am wasting my gifts by living with less. Let me explain………
When I didn’t really leave my house, I didn’t interact with many people. I had a small circle of people that I did life with, who were mostly family. While it was comfortable and easy……I was wrapped up in that. Like we were the only ones in this big world. I felt guilty if I thought I wanted more. Like I was ungrateful for what we had. I thought that being content was what I was supposed to be doing. Be happy with what you have.
Now that I’m learning how to be bold, I am discovering that by keeping to myself in an effort to save money, I am wasting my talents. I am wasting the possibilities of helping others.
I still feel that you need to be a good steward of whatever money is given to you, but I am no longer ashamed of my desire to make money. I am not ashamed that I want to be financially free. I want to be able to help those in need. I want to be able to help my children see that there is so much more to this world than what is offered in the little town that we live in.
I know someone that is suffering from some health issues. I believe that I have products and systems that can help her. But she cannot afford them. I want to be in a position to just give them to her. Guide her back to health and give her her life back so that she can be present in her family.
I know another family that is living in some financial hardship right now because of an injury that prevents the father from working for an unknown time. I hate to watch those we do life with struggle and I want to be in a position to give to them with nothing wanted/expected in return.
I want to be able to on any random day pack my kids and husband up and go somewhere that we’ve never been just because we can.
I want to put tires on my daughter’s car because I can afford it and she can’t.
There were so many people that unselfishly helped me when my 1st husband passed away. Way above anything that I could’ve ever imagined. My husband was the most unselfish person I had ever met and apparently those that also knew and loved him knew that too because they took care of us when he no longer could.
I want to be able to do that.
Money isn’t the most important thing in life, but it’s reasonably close to oxygen on the ‘gotta have it’ scale. – Zig Ziglar
I have learned SO MUCH in regards to who I am and what I am about in the last year. 2017 has been so good to me and I still have 3 1/2 mo left. I am ridiculously excited to be on this journey. The last 4 years have been so.incredibly.hard. I am so thankful for the amazing friend who gently pushed me to get involved in Revelation Wellness. It absolutely changed my life and still continues to do so.
I met my biz partners there. So many things have just fallen into place. I am just so incredibly excited to LIVE again. I feel incredible. I want others to feel what I’m feeling. I want others to feel my excitement for this life. I want others to not fear the future. I want them to break the cycle of living comfortably miserable.
You only get one life. What do you really want? What lies do you believe that are holding you back? Do you have a habit of giving up on yourself? Why?
The hashtag #livefulldieempty keeps popping up on my newsfeed. That has become my mantra. We were placed here to live, to love, to make a difference. Who will suffer if you don’t live the life you were placed here to live?
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