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How many things do we not pursue because we don’t feel like we know enough when education is the very thing we are pursuing?

You are probably wondering what the heck I’m talking about…..let me explain……

I read somewhere about someone that didn’t want to take a certain class because they didn’t know anything about the subject.  I mean, isn’t learning about something the very reason that you take the class?  Who made knowledge of something a pre-requisite to taking a class?  No one that I know of!

As I’ve been sharing about lately, I’m really getting into living toxin free, cleaning up my diet, using holistic remedies, and getting my body back in shape.  There are so many times that I see education that I would like to do but I feel that I don’t know enough to do it.  Since when do we need to be able to teach the class to be able to take it?  That thinking defeats the entire point of taking the class in the first place!!

There is a saying that says “An expert at anything was once a beginner” (or something along those lines).  We all start somewhere.  We don’t need to know what we are doing to start or continue learning. That is why it’s called learning.

I just wonder how many times we hold back what we do know because we feel that it’s not enough but are too nervous to learn more.  Too nervous to put ourselves out there without all of our credentials?

Les Brown says that if you are the smartest person in the room, you need to find a new room.

Learning should be lifelong.  And we shouldn’t not do something because we are a beginner and feel inferior to those with more expertise and background.  They, too, had to start from the beginning.

Are there things that you aren’t doing because you don’t feel like you know enough?

Maybe you aren’t speaking up about healthy eating because you are new on your journey.  Maybe you don’t want to enroll in a computer class because you don’t even know how to turn your computer on.  Maybe you don’t want to ask a question on a forum because you feel that you will be judged if you ask a question deemed “dumb” by those more experienced than you.  Maybe you feel that you can’t start a new life path because “you’ve never done anything like this before”, even though you are passionate about it.

We need to stop this holding ourselves back because we think we need to be knowledgeable in every area before we start anything new.  Learning comes from doing.  Learning comes from immersing ourselves in something and asking (even seemingly dumb) questions.

It’s funny because if you dive in and learn what you are searching for, all of a sudden, you have something new that you need to learn to compliment what you learned in the first place.  Even highly successful people need to keep learning.  In fact, successful people will tell you that they never stop learning! They are always doing self-development and searching for new ways to do things.

If you are the smartest person in the room, find a new room

Don’t let being a beginner hold you back.  Plow boldly into education then apply it.  Ask questions.  Blow off anyone that is rude or that feels that your question is too easy; just remember they started somewhere too.  Once you find yourself in a good place, look for those just starting out to help.  Show them grace and compassion and help them move up the knowledge scale.

Learn. Apply. Give back. Repeat.

Stop being afraid to step out.  The greatest growth happens in the scary places.  Get uncomfortable.  Do something you’ve never done.  Remember that if you want something that you’ve never had, you have to do something that you’ve never done.

Have you ever found yourself in that place that you won’t step out to learn something because you don’t know enough yet?  Doesn’t that sound ridiculous when put in writing?  “I can’t learn that because I don’t know it yet”

Stay true to yourself, push past your comfort zone and change your world!

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With today being the day after Easter, my newsfeed has been filled with infographics of how much exercise to do to burn off the Easter goodies.

We.need.to.stop.this.madness!

As I’ve been on this journey of health, fitness, and wholeness I’ve realized how many times I’ve fallen into this trap of punishing my body because of something (or many somethings) that I’ve eaten.  Maybe you do this too?

I’ll do an extra 1/2 hour on the treadmill because I ate those cookies.

I’ll workout this morning so that tonight I can eat cake after dinner.

I’m going to push extra hard today so that I can nosh on chips and salsa at the birthday party tonight.

Or maybe it’s not punishing your body, but your mind because of your indulgence.

I did it AGAIN.  I’ll never be able to lose the weight.

I can’t seem to get this right.  I might as well start again on Monday.  Let’s eat junk the rest of this day (week, month) so I get it out of my system to start on Monday. 

I finally got down to my goal weight and will not have that cake at my daughter’s birthday because it will cause me to get fat again.  Will power don’t fail me now.

You are such a loser.  How many times are your going to start again?  This cycle has been with you your whole life, you might as well just give up.

I could go on and on and on.  This has been my life cycle.  This is the cycle of so many women that I know (men too).

Food is not the issue.

The issue is much much deeper.

And it is more widespread than I ever realized until I started training in this field.  I still struggle and I’ve been training in health and fitness for over a year now.

I got to the point that for the 1st time in over 16 years I was actually losing weight.  Then I fell off the wagon.  Slowly, but it happened.  For about 4 months, I’ve been chasing after the wagon to jump back on, but just can’t seem to keep my grip.

I know how good I felt following a system that I *knew* I was going to hate.  I know how much energy I had.  I know how easy it was.  I loved not having sweet treats call to me all.the.time.  I loved how my clothes were starting to fit.  I swore that I would NOT go into my 38th birthday feeling the same way and looking the same way that I did on my 37th birthday.

Now, here I am closing in on 38 and I’m still the same weight (I gained back what I lost).  Still in the same clothes.  Tired all the time again.  Back pain again.  Cranky again. Craving sugar again.

I get it.  I’m in it with you.  However, one thing is different this time.

I REFUSE TO HATE MY BODY.

I refuse to punish my body because of the choices that I consciously made.  I refuse to fall back into the trap of picking apart my capable body. I refuse to starve myself to compensate for too many indulgences.  I refuse to injure myself pushing past exercise limits because my food choices have been less than stellar.  I won’t do it.  I am not worth less because I backslid a little, as far as healthy eating is concerned.

I refuse to condemn a body that is still able.  Still able to exercise.  Still able to walk.  Still able to run.  Still able to kickbox.  Still able to take care of my family.  Still able to chew my food.  Still able to prepare food that is good for me.  Still able to do all the activities with my family that I want to.

Am I a little irritated at myself that I’m not yet where I want to be? yep

Am I a little irritated that I let myself go back to where I started? yep

But I can be irritated, annoyed, frustrated and not stay there.  I can feel those things and not shame or hate my body.  I can feel those feelings and not start to hate the way my body looks and feels.

Instead, I will be grateful.  I will be grateful that I am able to start again.  I am grateful that I have the ability to move.  I have the ability to take care of my family.  I have the ability to use a system that is so easy to follow.  I have the ability to eat real, non-processed, healthy food because it’s available.  I have the privilege to make better choices, I’m not forced to eat something less than nutritious because that is all that is available to me.

I have so much in this life. I will continue to look for things to be happy about.  I will continue to pursue thankfulness. I will continue to feel my feelings but I will use them as motivation to move forward.  I only fail when I stop trying.  I know that I’ve learned lessons during these months of backsliding.  I will use those lessons to propel me forward.  I will start again.

We have got to stop punishing ourselves or feeling guilty when we step out of our goals.

Our bodies are amazing.  We need to treat them as such.  Stop the punishment.  Stop the rules.  Stop stepping out of life because you are so focused on every.little.morsel of food.

Sometimes you have to be happy with good enough.  Eat healthy food because you want to feel strong.  Eat healthy because you want to have an amazing quality of life.  Eat healthy because you want to feel comfortable in your clothes.  But don’t punish yourself when you slip a little.

There are so many more layers of why we fall off the healthy eating wagon…..but I won’t go into them in this post.  I will just leave it at this…..

Stop punishing yourself for eating.  Stop hating your body.

Move your body because you are able.  Move your body because it’s good for stress relief.  Move your body because it helps you feel energized.  Move your body to stay in the best health you can.  Move your body to give thanks that you can.

BUT don’t move it because you ate out of an Easter basket.  Or some pizza. Or your birthday cake.

Is this your mindset?  Do you struggle with this? What about yourself can you appreciate so that it changes your perspective?  Let’s chat, leave a comment below!

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After I hit publish on my last blog post, I received a message on facebook.  This message let me know that my blog is a blessing to this woman and that she fully believes that others are being reached through my writing.

Now, I am not saying this to brag.  I’m not looking for attention or for anyone to offer up more compliments.  It just made me start thinking that we don’t tell people enough how we feel about them.

Every day we are on social media.  Do we throw out a random like or do we just mindlessly scroll and say nothing?  I know, personally, I like a lot more things than I actually comment on.  Or I just don’t do anything at all.  I just don’t take the time.  But this message was absolutely balm to my soul.  I’ve struggled with getting back into writing and sometimes it just feels like too much.  Not needed, not wanted, not worth the effort.  This comment, that took very little time to write, re-set my brain to remember why I write.

What if we all started taking a minute to tell someone that they blessed you?  What if we reached out to let others feel that they are loved and seen?

Maybe it would give someone the little boost that they need to carry on if we took the time to tell them how much they mean.

• The mom that is at home every day with small children
• The widow that is trying to move through grief and learn how to parent without her husband
• The working mom that is trying to balance it all
• The mom that is starting a work from home business so that she can be with her kids and contribute to her family’s income
• The single teenager that is trying to survive high school and figure the world out
• The grandmother who is seeing their children or grandchildren self-destruct and are powerless to do something about it
• The girl that has always battled weight and is now committed to being active and eating well
• The woman that is appearing to be seeking attention, because you know that there are deeper issues going on

We just never know what is going on behind closed doors.  We never know what someone is hiding.  We never know what is behind the smile.

Maybe your 30 seconds that it takes to write a heartfelt comment to someone will give them the strength to make it to bedtime.  Or the will to carry on when everything looks bleak.  Or the ability to walk away from the cookie that is calling out of loneliness or boredom.  Maybe it will give fresh inspiration to the business builder that the hours and hours of seemingly worthless work really is paying off; maybe it really is worth the grind.

We all want to be seen, loved, and known.  Are you willing to take a minute and be that light in someone’s life?

At some point we have all wanted to throw in the towel, we have all wanted to quit.

My mom is an amazing example of this type of encouragement.  She is always sending out cards with Bible verses on them and a little note telling the recipient how good they are doing.

Does this take a lot of time? nope

Does it take a lot of money? nope

Does it encourage and let someone know that they are worth the time and energy it took to send it? yep

Does it make someone know that you are thinking about them and that they are doing a good job? yep

We need to give away what we need.  If we want to feel loved, valued, and seen, we need to start by giving it away.  Reach out to someone that inspires you, or someone that you know is walking through a rough time, or just someone that posted something that you liked.

As I get older, I realize how much we were made for community.  I realize how much we need to be involved in others’ lives and how much we need them involved in ours.

So, take the time to reach out and encourage.  You never know much someone may need it.  You never know when you may be an answer to prayer.  You never know when your words were exactly what someone needed to hear at exactly that time.

Send a text, send a FaceBook message, send a snail mail card, send a little gift, give them a phone call……just do something.  Be a blessing.  You will feel better because of it and so will they.

Have you ever received just the right words at just the right time?  How did it affect your mood, day, business, parenting, marriage?  What can you do to bless those around you?

Let’s connect…..share ideas below in the comments or share an instance where you were blessed unexpectedly!

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(and to you that sent me the message, thank you!)

As many of you know, for the last several years, I have been searching for my place and purpose in this life.  Why am I here?  What is my God-given design and direction for my life?

Obviously, as a two-time wife and mom of 5, being a wife and mom are part of my purpose, but like many of you, I long for more.  I love taking care of my family, but I feel that there is more out there for me to do.  There are additional places where I am supposed to make an impact, more places to share my story.  More people to serve and love on.

In the last year since I became a Revelation Wellness instructor, things have changed so much for me.  I’ve seen God in a new light.  I’ve had chains broken.  I’ve tasted true, life-altering freedom.  I’ve also struggled with what I’m supposed to do with it.  What does it look like now that my mindset is changing? What story am I supposed to be sharing and how?

I read this quote this morning and it stopped me in my tracks.  It came up on my time hop on Facebook and, as they seem to do, resurfaced at a perfect time.  You may say that it’s a coincidence, I call it God’s perfect timing 🙂

Your greatest ministry will most likely come out of your greatest hurt. ~ Rick Warren

I’ve seen this quote many times, but this morning, it took on a whole new meaning and conviction.

You see, I have struggled with body image and weight my entire life.  I’ve lost weight, I’ve gained weight, I’ve eaten dairy and gluten, I’ve not eaten dairy and gluten, I’ve worked out consistently, I’ve been lazy……but regardless of what size I’ve been, I’ve not been happy……at least where my body is concerned.

I’ve been happy with my life.  Content. Peaceful. But at the core of it all, I’ve never really been happy with myself.  That was always the thorn in my side that I couldn’t ever seem to pull out.

I’ve had issues with unbalanced hormones, thyroid, adrenals, herniated discs, blood sugar, stress, and horrible eating habits.  There were so many people saying “do this” or  “do that” for solving these “problems” that it was just overwhelming.  When I did think I had an answer to one or all of these, I struggled to follow through long enough to allow my body (and the good Lord) to fix itself.  I would just get caught back up in all the noise that is everywhere.

I have always been drawn to fitness.  I love a good kickboxing workout or lifting free weights.  I love feeling strong, even if sometimes my body’s looks don’t reflect the strength.  While I had a gym membership for a year a long time ago, I’ve never seen myself as a “trainer” or as someone that could actually serve people through fitness and wellness.  Heck, I was having a hard enough time figuring it out myself.  How could I put myself out there if I didn’t look the part?

Then I found Rev.  It changed me.  It made me see myself as God sees me.  His love for me is not dependent on how I look.  I need to be physically fit to be able to fulfill my calling on my life and also to be able to serve my family, but He’s never judgemental about my weight.  He just keeps gently nudging me back to my calling.  He showed me that I don’t need to look the part, I just need to follow Him.  He will bring those that need my message and help.  He will make a way.  He doesn’t call the equipped, He equips the called.  If He calls me to it, He is faithful to give me what I need to succeed, I only just need to ask and trust.

I honestly thought that because being a wife comes so easy to me that it was my calling.  To lead other women in being a godly wife.  I thought that with me sharing the lessons I was learning on my blog in the years before Chad died that I was serving my purpose.  I had many many people come up to me after he passed away and tell me how much my blog helped them and how much it changed their way of thinking.

I think I struggled for so long with my purpose because I felt like that was it.  When I found myself in a brand new marriage, I no longer felt qualified to be leading others in regards to marriage.  I was the one that needed to be taught.  I was learning how to be a wife and how to have a great marriage all over again myself, what advice did I have to give?

Then I thought that maybe my story of being a widow was my calling.  To share my story to encourage others.  To remind others to live each day fully and intentionally.

While I know that this is a very important part of my story, I no longer think that this is my calling.  It’s funny to think about now because being a wife and a widow are easy for me to talk about.  I can talk about them on my own power.  Yes, I am in that place because of the Lord’s hand, but it’s not a spot that gives me nervous diarrhea…..lol.

I’ve always heard that it’s in the hard places that change comes.  It’s in the stepping out when it’s scary that things happen.  It’s being faithful to God’s call when you are absolutely NOT equipped to do the job.  It’s relying on Him to make things happen because this is not your happy place.  It’s trusting that He gave you enough desire in an area to get you interested, but not enough to step out without needing Him to make it work.  It’s in the place of being comfortable getting uncomfortable.  That’s where the biggest things happen.  That is where real change takes place.  That’s where your purpose lies.

Something just clicked when I read that quote this morning.

My purpose in this life is to share fitness and nutrition freedom.  I need to share because I don’t have it figured out.  I need to share because I also have to figure out what works for me.  I need to share because I do have knowledge that will help others just starting out on this journey.  I need to share because I’m in it with them, maybe I’m just a step farther ahead in that process and can now give back.  I need to share because it scares me.  I need to share because others need to know that there is a life of freedom waiting for them.

My greatest hurt in my whole life has been being stuck inside of myself.  Loathing myself. Hating my body. Wishing I was something or someone different.  Looking at others wishing that “I could do that”.

In Rev, we talked a lot about our original design.  What is your bend?  What have you been drawn to your entire life?  What makes you feel alive and free?  What scares you to death?  That is what you should do.  That is where your freedom and purpose lives.

For me, it’s fitness.  It’s sharing and inviting others when I don’t yet look the part.  It’s trusting that someone out there needs me to step out for them to find freedom.

Don’t get me wrong, there has been much confusion, frustration, and doubt circling this realization.  There is soooooo much out there in the world regarding fitness, diets, supplements, workouts, etc.  Trying to sort it all out is maddening.  So I stopped trying to figure it out.

I have learned that everyone is different and that everything isn’t going to work for everybody.  It is important for you to learn what works for your body and for your lifestyle.

Taking the pressure off myself to fit into ANY mold has been life-giving.  I have learned so much through my Rev training, my nutrition training, and my supplement company.

I am beginning to see what works for me and what doesn’t.  I am learning to listen to my body and adjust accordingly.  I have also learned that none of it matters if faith isn’t a part of the process.

My longest greatest hurt that has been a hindrance in my life is my body issues.  My greatest regret is that I didn’t see the faith and fitness connection sooner.  I will not allow myself to live in regret, however, so I move on from here.   I confess trying to do this myself.  I confess making my body and idol.  I confess making food an idol and comfort.  I confess not being diligent.

Over the last week or two, I’ve truly had an awakening regarding my complete health and wellness and I have no doubt that my “get to” in this life is to share freedom with others.

I am so tired of not being able to be active like I desire to be with my family.  I am so sick of not moving forward because of what others will think.  And I also wonder how many will stay stuck in bondage to lies if I don’t step up and live the life I am here to live?

Sobering thought.  Am I the reason that some are still struggling?  Who am I keeping from freedom because I am so stuck in my own head?

I am here for a purpose and I am confident that I, finally, know what that purpose is.  It is to continue to find freedom for myself in the areas of mind, body, and soul health and to help others to do the same.

New things are coming and I can’t wait to share!

Are you stuck in self-loathing?  Are you physically sick or overweight?  Are you struggling with chronic health issues?  Do you hate the mirror? Do you want energy to be able to be active with your family? I’d love to help you, contact me here, or leave a message below and let’s connect!

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Yesterday I read one of my old blog posts and it hit me hard.  It was about being thankful for where you are and what you have right now and not always wanting more.  I spent several years before my 1st husband passed away learning how to be content.  After he passed, it took me years to start to figure life out again.  We just passed the 5 year anniversary of his death, and I’m still trying to get back on track.

We were high school sweethearts.  I was 15 when we got together.  We shared almost 17 years together.  That is a long time when those years are your growing up years.  We never knew how to be apart.  We learned to be adults, parents, and spouses together.  When that was suddenly gone, I was lost.  I didn’t know who I was anymore.  Everything that had shaped me was no longer a factor.

I could do anything I wanted.  I could make any decisions that I wanted.  I could just be me without regard to anyone else.  I didn’t have to factor in anyone else’s desires or thoughts.  I was free to just be Nicole.

But who was Nicole?

My whole purpose was being a wife.  I loved my kids and I loved being a mom, but being a wife was my greatest calling.  I knew that Chad wanted the very best for our family and I grew to be content to follow his leading for our family.  For someone that is as strong-willed and opinionated as I am, that wasn’t always easy, but I knew with all my heart that he was leading our family as he felt God was leading him.

By following his lead for our family, I found myself in positions that I never thought I’d be in.  I was a stay at home mom and we were homeschooling.  Those days can become very monotonous, and that, coupled with an extreme lack of money, set me up for some very very hard days.

The amazing thing about that time, though, was that as hard as it was at that time, the Lord was working on me to be happy with where I was.  To be happy to be able to be at home with my kids.  To be able to be the one teaching them and watching them learn.  To be happy to be able to make food for my family (though I hated cooking, I started to be thankful that I had the time to make them healthy foods from scratch).  To be happy that my days weren’t crazy busy and that I had ample downtime to grow my relationship with the Lord and to be able to write about it so that others could be encouraged.

I found great happiness in little things.  I got to a place where I refused to worry.  I didn’t overanalyze every little thing.  I actually enjoyed being with my kids.  I loved taking care of my husband.  It was just a very content place in my life.

Since then, I’ve had to re-discover me.  In that process, I’ve lost my joy.  I’ve lost my contentment.  I always seem to be looking for the thing that will finally make me happy.

I want structure, but I want to be spontaneous.  I want to work for myself, but I want someone to tell me what to do.  I want money now, but I want time to figure things out and make money on my own. I want to be fit and healthy, but I want to eat junk too often.  I want to be diligent and persistent and consistent, but I want to chase all the shiny things and quit when it gets a smidge hard. I want to control but know that isn’t the way.  I want to live in freedom and joy but live in fear.

My husband and I are in a class called Freedom right now at our church.  It is amazing.  It totally reinforces everything we learned in Revelation Wellness training.  Freedom is what I want.  Contentment. Joy. Happiness. Freedom to live the abundant life that Christ came to give.  I’m ready to get unstuck.

Isn’t it funny that when you are struggling, it seems that the answers just keep popping up all around you?

After the blog coming back up yesterday about finding the joy in everyday things, this came up on my time hop on Facebook this morning.  I was again reminded of how far I’ve fallen and also it gave me new motivation to get back to where I was.

My 1st husband loved life.  He truly taught me how to love the everyday things.  The little things.  The insignificant things.  In fact, that was one of the traits that kept coming back up over and over and over after his death.  How much he didn’t need much to be happy.  How he was satisfied with what he had.

Sure, we had dreams to do more and have more and to better the lives of our girls, but he taught me to be content in the process.  How to be happy with what you have.  How to live in the moment and savor the day.  How to dream without creating unhealthy desire.  How to be thankful.  How to live with joy.

My house is in currently in chaos.

It is my fault.

I take total responsibility.  The mom sets the tone, right?  I believe it wholeheartedly.

I’ve forgotten the very thing that made my memories so sweet.  It was the emotional place that I was in.  The fully surrendered to God, live a life of joy, thankfulness, and gratitude life.

In my search to find out who I am as a person, woman, new wife, new step-mama, mom to teens/young adults, etc I’ve lost my joy.

I am looking to so many things to try to find joy that I’ve created an atmosphere of chaos in my home.

I’m crabby.  Because I’m crabby, my kids are crabby.  Because we are all crabby, my husband gets crabby.  It’s a vicious circle and I, sadly, just want out.  And, honestly, I have checked out.  Which just makes it worse.  I just don’t want to do anything.  I waste time on my phone or hide out in my bedroom.  I bury myself in a book, or just want to leave the house altogether.  If/when they want my attention, they are met with attitude, sarcasm, or disgust.  I just don’t want to deal with the chaos anymore, so I don’t……which only leads to more chaos.

But……..the good news is that I CAN CHANGE IT.

I can find joy in the process of finding out what makes me ME. I can trust God’s timing and enjoy that I am right where I’m supposed to be.  I can put on a smile and be happy for my children.  I can find little ways to tell my husband that I love, respect, and appreciate him.

Will it be hard?  Yep.

Will I have to somewhat fake it til I make it? Yep.

Will I want to just retreat sometimes and just be ornery? Yep.

But it’s not worth it.  The sacrifice is too great.  My family is growing.  Time is wasting.  I can’t let any more time get away while I’m sulking and contributing my bad attitude to finding myself.

I can’t whine about my life when I’m doing nothing to change it.  I’m half-heartedly trying to change things in my life, but I’m fully committed to nothing.

This reminder from One Fit Widow this morning was so eye-opening.

My late husband was one that lived life with blinders on.  He saw what he wanted and he did it.  When things didn’t go his way, he readjusted and kept plugging on.  It wasn’t easy, but for the most part, he did it with a smile on his face.  He was just generally happy with life.  He was the poster child for contentment.  As a result, our family thrived.

This life of joy and thankfulness didn’t die with my husband.  It wasn’t something that only he possessed.  He didn’t take it with him and leave me with nothing.

It is a choice.  He made the choice to live his life that way and SO CAN I!

It is a choice to be thankful no matter what. It is a choice to dwell on what you do have, and not what you don’t.  It is a choice to put on a happy face and speak from a heart of gratitude.  It is a choice to move on in life and notice the little things that make our lives great.  How you speak to your loved ones is a choice…..whether you speak kindly or harshly.  Whether you speak life-giving words or words that cause harm.  Whether you spread peacefulness or stir up chaos.

Sometimes you just need to make a decision to start.  A decision, a choice, to stop being negative.  A choice to press on even when it’s hard and to put a smile on your face regardless of circumstances.  A choice to focus on what you already have and be thankful for it.  A choice to not complain.  A choice to be the change that you want to see in your children or in the atmosphere of your home.

My 1st husband was very simple.  He was genuinely happy.  He was genuinely satisfied with his life.  He helped me to be that person and I want to be here again.

Even though I learned that from him, he didn’t make me that way.  I made a choice. I made a choice to live in thankfulness and joy.  I’m ready to be that person again.

My new family deserves that.  My new husband deserves that.  My kids deserve that.

I know all too well that life is short and I don’t want to leave this life with a family that can’t say that I lived my life with a smile on my face. I want them to be able to remember their childhood as a time of joy and laughter and fun.  I want them to remember the little things that brought them joy.  I want them to be able to say that no matter what, their home was safe and comforting.

This hasn’t been the case for many years, but I want it back.  I miss that girl and I know that my family does too.

How about you?  Are you committed to being joyful?  Do you let life get to you and bring you down? Are you thankful for where you are?  It’s impossible to be thankful and crabby at the same time.  If you are intentionally looking for the best in everything and living in gratitude for the blessings you have been given, joy will come….you won’t even have to search for it.

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Most people are so negative they have to say ‘no’ 7 times before they say ‘yes'” ~ Les Brown

7 times.  Why?  Why are people so scared of change?  So scared of things being different…..even to the point of staying miserable because change is just too much to handle.

I will say that I am in this camp more than I would like to admit.  As a recovering people pleaser with many instances of relapse, I totally get not wanting to be that person.

That person that preaches too much.  That person that is trying to sell you something.  That person that is seemingly everywhere trying to get you to do things that you don’t want to do.  That person that keeps coming back again and again and bugging you when you’ve already told them no.  That person that has changed their life and for some reason feels that you need to change yours too.  That person that continually goes on and on about the things that they are excited about.

I know, they got on my nerves too.  Until I started seeing them (and myself) in a different light.  What if they were onto something?  What if they had an answer to my problem?  What if I was staying miserable because I am so negative and caught up in myself that I was missing something that may be an answer to prayer?

Do you ever talk to people and discount everything they say because if you were to believe what they were saying, you’d have to change?  You’d have to put in some work? You’d have to quit complaining about yourself and change your circumstances?  You’d have to admit that you really are just existing instead of living, but living means making changes?

I am a famous quitter.  I quit everything that I start.  This year, the word that I kept hearing and seeing all over was diligent.  Last year, it was be still.  I spent the year being still.  Learning, listening, healing myself (inside and out).

Now that I feel led to move on to diligence, it’s scary!  It means that I need to go after my God-given dreams, even if I go alone.  It means that I need to put in the work even if no one responds.  It means that I need to push on even when it’s hard.

I so desperately don’t want to be that person, that I drop out.  I quit.

I struggle to put myself out there on social media because I think, “Who cares?  No one cares what you are having for lunch”.  But what if they do?  What if someone that never speaks up needed an idea or help starting to eat healthy?  If I don’t share something so “stupid” as my lunch, am I hindering them?

If I don’t share a workout, am I giving others the impression that I’m not committed, so they take time off too?  If I don’t share my journey to working for myself from home, am I keeping them from financial freedom because others may see me as that person?

These are all the things that I think when I don’t share on social media.  But by hiding, I am not moving forward.  Because I am not moving forward, I quit.  Because I quit, I’m stuck in the same place year after year after year.

Stuck in a less than stellar financial position.  Stuck in a body that is not in the best shape that it could be. Stuck in my own limited thinking and fear that if people don’t flock to me that I’m not going to make it, so I might as well quit.

The quote above really struck me.  We heard the speech it came from at my company’s conference last August and it struck me then too.

Many people don’t even know what they are missing out on because they are stuck in negativity.  Stuck in a mentality that everyone is out to harm them.  Stuck in the thinking that they are just living the hand that they were dealt in life and are powerless to change it.

YOU ARE NOT YOUR SITUATION.  YOU ARE NOT POWERLESS TO CHANGE IT.  YOU CAN DO BETTER AND BE BETTER.

Another quote from Les Brown is this, “You gotta be HUNGRY”.  You’ve got to be hungry for change.  You have got to be sick and tired of your life the way it is.  Sick and tired of being physically sick and tired.  Sick and tired of being financially unstable.  Sick and tired of letting others dictate your life.

It’s time we get out of our own heads.  It’s time we stop telling outselves that it’s too late and nothing can change.  It’s time that we stop believing the lies that we are just unlucky and we can’t do better and be better with our lives.

My mom used to always tell us “can’t never did anything”.  Now, that was normally when we didn’t want to do something and we wanted her to do it for us, but it absolutely applies here also.  You not wanting to do something is totally different than you not being capable of doing something.

You don’t really want to lose weight or you could (or find out what is going on in your body to cause it to retain weight).  You don’t really want to get out of debt or you’d find every last way to make money and get it done.  You don’t really want to be financially free or leave your job because if you did, you’d get out there and do something different.  Admit it, you are comfortable miserable.  You are not happy with your life circumstances, but you are too negative to say yes to anything that would change the trajectory of your life.

I am totally preaching to myself here.  Stop with the negativity.  Stop with the overthinking.  Stop with the fear because it looks too hard or unachievable.  The greatest at anything was once a beginner.

Start where you are.  Don’t be critical of everyone and everything.  Take one step at a time.  Do not give up.  You can change your timeline or your path, but don’t give up progress to your goals.  Fail and try again.  Don’t listen to others and don’t look to others to validate you.  Surround yourself with positive people and people that will push you to keep going when you want to quit.

I am finally ready to move forward.  The first 3 months of 2018 have been tough and I’ve chickened out of my goals and dreams too many times……but I haven’t quit.  I may have stalled a bit, but I am so sure of my word diligent being perfect for me right now, that I won’t allow any quitting.

People may get tired of seeing me, but that is ok.  They can choose to move on.  I want to be surrounded by those that are sick of the negativity and are ready to live their lives intentionally; on purpose for a purpose.

Carrie Wilkerson, The Barefoot Executive, teaches that you have to put yourself out there if you want people to know what you do.  For me, this means putting myself out there so that people know what I am moving towards in my life.  I am moving towards building my business around helping and serving others in the areas of total body health and wellness.  Mind, body, and soul healing.

It is not up to others to remember what I’m doing.  It is up to me to put myself out there so that when a person that needs my help is ready, they can find me.  If I stay stuck in the negative space, I would stop putting myself out there after a few days of no responses.  I would think, “no one cares, no one wants to work with you, you are in over your head, you are becoming that person and people are going to get irritated”.

BUT what if I continue to provide value?  What if I continue to put advice out there that people need?  What if I decide that when my people are ready they will find me because I didn’t stop when it felt like nothing was happening?  I didn’t fall back into my own insecurities that no response meant that people were irritated with me.  Chances are, people aren’t even thinking about me as much as I give them credit for.  Do you find this to be true about yourself too?  Do you often quit before you really get started?

What opportunities are you passing by because you are so stuck in your own negativity?  Financial, personal, physical, all of the above?  I would love to be your cheerleader if you are ready to move forward and get out of the comfortable misery that you are living in.  Are there people that you see doing great things in your life and you are just watching from the sidelines because you are paralyzed with fear and what if’s?  Paralyzed by fear of failure?

What are you waiting for???  Make the changes now……time is not something that you can ever get back so don’t waste it.  You are stronger than you think and you are capable of more than you can imagine.  Let yourself dream then act.  It’s never too late.

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Today is my oldest daughter’s 18th birthday.  Seems impossible that she is already at this point in her life.  So exciting and a little sad at the same time.  I am so sad that the quiet little shy girl has grown into an amazing woman, but I am so excited about where she is in life and the plans that God has laid out for her.

In honor of this very special birthday, I was doing a little reflecting on what I’ve learned in my life and I want to share these little nuggets of wisdom with her as she steps into adulthood.

This may also resonate with other women as it is so hard to really thrive in today’s world of comparison, body shaming, searching, and self-hatred.

My goal in this post is to humbly share some lessons that I’ve dug hard to find in the last few years.  I hope this blesses you.

And, Lexi, don’t make these mistakes.  Stumble and fall but never stop moving forward.   Apply these truths to your life and don’t waste on so many things that don’t matter.  I will forever have your back and I love you so very much!

#1 – ALWAYS FOLLOW THE LORD, FIRST AND FOREMOST

Start your day with Him.  Thank Him even in the hard stuff.  He will always be there for you (even when we can’t be).  Believe that He always wants His best for you, even if you don’t see the goodness in it at the time.  Learn to be still and listen to Him.  Look for what He wants to teach you in the rough patches.  Always lean into Him for the supernatural peace and love that He offers in abundance.  He loves you more than anyone.  Remember that and operate from that truth.  You are His daughter.  You cannot do anything to change that.  Don’t run when you mess up, get close to Him. Sing to and worship Him, your life will be abundantly blessed if you press into Him and follow Him always.

#2 – DON’T BELIEVE LIES ABOUT YOURSELF

As I mentioned above, you are a child of God.  Loved, enough, chosen, called.  Find out who GOD says you are and live in that truth.  You don’t need to prove anything to anyone.  You are enough because He said so.  God has a perfect plan for your life and believing lies will only distract you from fulfilling that purpose.  Don’t fall into the comparison trap.  Don’t listen to the lies of the evil one.  Don’t let anyone distract you from being who you were designed to be.  You are fearfully and wonderfully made.  Perfect.  Lacking nothing. When God calls you to something, He will equip you.  Be willing to get uncomfortable and follow His lead.  Even if you stand alone, stand with Him.  He is worth it.

#3 – LOOK FOR THE GOOD IN ALL SITUATIONS

Regardless of the circumstances, good can be found…..if you are only willing to look for it.  Sometimes it seems that there is absolutely nothing good about a circumstance (I know that you know that all too well), but be open to looking anyway.  God will allow nothing that doesn’t fit into His plan.  If you are following Him, He will give you peace in every situation (trust me….He does).  In everything, you can find good.  Ask what you can learn in every circumstance.  What can you do to make your self better?  What will going through this situation do in your life?  Can you use it to help others?  Always be open to learning and becoming a better person. Nothing is wasted.

#4 – BE SENSITIVE TO OTHERS

When others are difficult, look for the heart behind what is causing their ugliness.  Don’t automatically write them off.  They may be dealing with things that you can only understand in your worst nightmares.  Be slow to talk and quick to listen.  Look behind the harshness.  Hurt people, hurt people.  Always remember that.  It’s not a reflection on you.  It’s a reflection of their heart.  Maybe you can help, maybe you can’t…..but don’t give ugliness for ugliness.  Pray for them and move on.  Be careful of the condition of your heart because out of the heart the mouth speaks.  If you return nastiness for nastiness, you are being no different than them.  Don’t do that.  Be the only light that some may ever see.  If they live a life of darkness, be a ray of hope for them.

#5 – SET GOALS AND NEVER STOP TRYING TO ACHIEVE THEM

Over the course of time, your goals and dreams will change…..but never stop working toward trying to achieve what you are dreaming of.  Never compare yourself to others.  I’ve heard to “not compare your beginning to another person’s middle”.  Just because you are not where you want to be is no reason to quit.  Failure means that you are trying.  Don’t ever be afraid of failure…..just don’t ever quit.  Adjust your goals, adjust your process, adjust your timeframe…..but don’t quit.  Learn from your failures.  Never stop learning.  Don’t get caught up in everything being perfect before you start or getting bogged down with “how to’s”.  Just jump in, fail, learn, and go at it again.

#6 – DON’T FOLLOW THE “RULES” JUST BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT YOU FEEL YOU “SHOULD” DO

As Alisa Keeton of Revelation Wellness always says, “Don’t should on yourself”.  Do your own thing. Follow YOUR own path.  Don’t let what you think you SHOULD do get in the way.  Don’t think “I should because my parents say so, my teachers say so, Facebook says so, blogs say so, etc.”  You do YOU and don’t follow anything because you think you should.  Do it YOUR way.  Seek wise counsel, listen to the Lord, follow His word…..but then put blinders on and pave your own path!

#7 – YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL

No matter what may happen in your life that changes you physically, you are beautiful.  You are capable of anything and you have amazing potential.  Never let anyone tell you anything less.  Your worth is not based on what you look like.  So many women struggle with picking themselves apart.  Love what you were given.  Embrace your flaws.  They are what make you, you.  Don’t apologize for them, don’t cover them up, don’t let them alter how you live your life.  You are unique for a purpose, don’t let your physical appearance dictate your actions.  Love because you are loved, move because you can, make a difference because that is what you were created for!

Lexi, I love you. I am incredibly proud of you. Your dad would be incredibly proud of you.  You have struggled well and I believe that you will turn those ashes into something beautiful.  Don’t live to fulfill his purposes, he already did that.  Live to fulfill yours.  God has a plan for YOUR life and it’s just as useful and beautiful as your dad’s was.  We were so blessed to have been given you.  Be a light in this dark world.  Laugh and live.  Life is too short to worry; pray and move on.  God will handle the hard things for you.  I am blessed to be here to watch you grow and to be in your life.  I will always always be your mom and I will always always love you.  I will give you tough love when you need it, advice when you need it, and I will always always be here to pick you up when you fall (because you will 😉 )  I am so excited and beyond blessed to watch you soar out into this world……you will be incredible.

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It’s been a while.  Again.

I’ve been doing some more soul searching and because of that, I get into info overload.  I think I know where I’m going and what I’m doing, then I start to second guess.

I get insanely excited about my future…..but then let it fizzle.  I let my own rebellious, questioning, doubting thoughts become my reality.

I become who I fear to talk to.  I become the person that I feel will let the wind out of my sails, so to speak.  I fall into a trap of all or nothing…..which leads to questioning and doubt…..which leads to giving up altogether.

A few weeks ago, I had the most amazing conversation with my husband.  He lovingly called me out (which I asked for), he reassured me that he was behind me 100% no matter what, and he encouraged me to follow my path.

Since that conversation, all of my rebellious, questioning, doubting thoughts have all but disappeared.

First, He is all in and committed to a business we will build together.  He is not a fitness guy, really.  He’s not into natural things (supplements, oils, alternative health care).  He’s not really that entrepreneurial (he likes safety and a guaranteed paycheck).  But he absolutely believes in and loves this business.  Of all of my friends in this business, mine is the only husband that is in from the beginning.  That thought just won’t leave me.  When all of their husbands only came on board after several years, mine is there now.  That is not a coincidence.

I’ve been praying for the Lord to show me what He wants me to do in this life and I know that helping people find freedom is part of that.  Body image freedom, health freedom, weight freedom, soul freedom, financial freedom, time freedom.

This opportunity came about in ways that could only be from God.  That my husband is on board with something that is totally not his norm could only be from God.

My questioning and rebelling is only hurting me.

Well, I guess truly, that’s a false statement.  My questioning and rebelling is hurting others because I could be helping them find their answers regarding their health, wholeness, and freedom.  My lack of obedience is causing others to stay stuck in their issues.

OUCH 🙁

I’ve had a lightbulb moment in the last few weeks that this opportunity is truly from the Lord.  Everything lines up too perfect for it to not be.  I have my work right in front of me and I couldn’t see it……until now.

I know that there will be doubters.  There will be skeptics.  There will be those that want nothing more than to argue.  And I am completely ok with that now.  This is not black and white.  There will be those that I can help change their lives through this opportunity.  There will be those that are ready and willing for me to help them.  There are those that will start off strong and give up.  That is not on me.  There will be those that have a million different excuses about why this can’t/won’t work for them.  That is ok.  I am finally ok with that.

I am no longer willing to base my calling around what others think.  When I think no one cares or that no one is listening or that I heard God wrong, I will cast off those lies.  They will not define me anymore that I am not enough.  I am enough and people out there need what I have to offer.

For those that are ready, for those that are willing to work, for those that are wanting to change the course of their lives……..I am so ready to do this with them.  I’m ready to be in the trenches with you.  I’m ready to pray you through your journey.  I’m ready to encourage you and cheer you on when you get weary. I’m ready to speak life into you so that you don’t quit.  I’m also ready to let you go if I need to and I’m ready to welcome you with open arms if/when you should decide to come back.

This is so much more than just an opportunity……this is an avenue to FREEDOM.

I am so done analyzing everything to death.  This worked amazingly well for my husband and I.  It will work for you.  Is it for everyone? No.  Is it the only way to do this on the planet? No.  But I do believe it is amazing, it works, and it’s simple.

I am 100% back in and committed.  I will be sharing my journey (body, mind, soul, financial) because it will keep me accountable.  It will not all be pretty, but it will be worth it.

Regardless of whether or not you are interested in my opportunity, I’d love to form an accountability group.  I’d love to support you in your goals, whatever they may be.  No pressure, no sales, just love and hope-sharing.  Please reach out to me if you are interested!

Are your answers to your prayers staring you in the face and you are just too caught up in yourself to see them?

What are your goals for 2018?  Did you already give up on them?  Do you want some help and support?

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I’ve been noticing lately that when I’m off social media for any length of time I come up with tons of ideas.  I come up with blog ideas, business ideas, courses, book outlines, website developments; you name it, I’m on it.  I am absolutely convinced that it will be amazing, it will work, and people will love it.

Then I get back on social media.

Too soon, my doubts and fears start creeping back in.  I make a post that has my absolute best intentions at the heart of it, only to have it stomped on by someone offended.  I desperately want to retreat.  I want to delete the post.  I don’t want to put myself out there.

What if I’m wrong?  What if I am pushing on toward this conviction but it’s not right?  What if the argument is valid?

Over the last year, I’ve dealt with a LOT of heart junk.  I’ve confronted a LOT of lies that I’ve believed about myself for a very long time.  I’ve healed some spaces that were very raw and I still continue to heal some areas.  I’ve come a very long way.  However, it only takes a minute to start sliding back down into that pit.

It only takes one comment to put you back into that place of doubt……then it snowballs.

What if no one really wants what I’m about to offer (that I’ve spent a YEAR preparing for)?

What if this isn’t really what the Lord is calling me to do?  What if I heard Him wrong?

What if I give this my all—time, finances, hustle—and it fails?

What if I offer a solution that people disagree with and they call me out on it?

Maybe there are already too many people doing this, maybe there is no room for another

Maybe I should just keep my mouth shut and focus on easier things.  Things that aren’t sensitive and controversial and insanely personal

This happens for a few minutes, then the new Nicole kicks in and says, “NOPE….NOT THIS TIME”

People WILL disagree with me.  That is ok.

People WILL think that my way is ineffective, dumb, or too hard.  That is ok.

People WILL balk at my offerings, particularly if they are offended by them because it could help them but they aren’t willing to do the hard things to go down that path with me. That is ok.

People WILL look at me and question my expertise because I haven’t “arrived” yet.

But you know what???!!!  THAT IS OK.

I feel VERY strongly that I am walking down the correct path.  I feel that I WILL help people become healthy and whole.  I KNOW that my story will help people.

I may not have all the details laid out yet (which hurts my OCD tendencies), but I have committed to press on anyway.  I will share my journey.  I will teach as I learn. I will be diligent because I know that there will be people watching and I want them to say because of you, I didn’t quit.

I have *always* been a quitter.  But things are different now.  I am in a different place.  I have goals set by the Almighty.  He will bring the right people to me.  He will make my paths straight as I surrender them to Him.

I am still on this earth because I have a purpose to serve.  If I don’t fulfill my purpose, others will not fulfill their purpose either.

Revelation Wellness‘ theme is this:

• LOVE GOD (√)
• GET HEALTHY (working on it)
• BE WHOLE (working on this too, but getting there)
• LOVE OTHERS (so much more than ever before!)

I have been shown all of these things.  But if I allow old lies or other’s voices to take over my newly found freedom, how many more people will I keep from finding their own freedom that they can then pass on to others?

If I let fear and worry dictate my days, I am COSTING others their FREEDOM!

So, as I learn more and put myself out there more please know that anything and everything that I post is rooted in LOVE.  If it offends you, I am genuinely sorry, but I will not shrink back.  I will not hide.  The Lord showed me things within me that I know others struggle with too and by talking about that struggle, some will be offended.  That is ok.

It is my prayer as I push on toward this new adventure that others will watch my journey with open eyes and hearts.  That strongholds will be broken.  That made up rules and bondage will be cast away.  That they will be open to change and a journey towards freedom—in food, heart issues, body image, old hurts, lies that have been believed, bitterness that is eating away, etc.

Do you get all excited then shrink back when opposition comes?

If you could do anything, what would it be?  What is keeping you from doing it—is it rooted in fear?

What are you scared of?  How do you feel about the prospect that if you aren’t living out your God-given purpose then someone else isn’t living theirs either?

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I took 2 of these pictures last week and never followed through on posting them.  I was all amped up after a great workout and full of inspiration……then talked myself out of it.

Then 3 of them I took this morning. Again, after a great workout.  I think of these great little tidbits while I’m working out, then by the time I’m done and snap pics I’ve analyzed them to death.

“No one wants to see these”

“Why are you posting this?”

“If people really want to be inspired, they will look inside themselves”

“Look at your arm flub”

“You sweat really bad”

“These juicy tidbits that I’ve come up with during my workout would be amazing done in a video…….AFTER I shower”

“You don’t have anything to say that hasn’t been said 1000 times”

*Stand this way* *fix your shirt* *move to better lighting* *pull your bra up so your back/side fat is covered*

Why?  Seriously, why do I (we) do this to ourselves? Why are we so mean to ourselves when we’d never be that judgemental to someone else?  Why do we quietly shame ourselves into keeping quiet when we have a message to share?  A journey to share that may be helpful to someone else?

What ends up happening is that when I get a thought or idea that needs to be shared, I make myself wait until I’m “presentable”…….then things happen, the day gets away from me, and it never happens.

My word for 2018 is DILIGENT.  I have a habit of starting things that never come to fruition.  I want to accomplish things but then fall short……year after year after year.  If you look back through my blog posts, it’s always the same.  I’ll do better this time.…..and I do……for a while.

I’m not sure what changed in me in 2017, but I am on fire for change this year.  I actually wrote down goals, broke them down into ACTIONABLE steps, then took the steps and SCHEDULED them into my day.  They WILL happen.

I’ve decided that I thrive on routine.  The spontaneous part of me screams for anything goes days, but I’ve learned that if I don’t hold myself to a schedule…..nothing happens.  Nothing gets accomplished.  I waste day after day after day with nothing to show for it.

One of my goals is to be done with nutrition training by my birthday in July.  At that time, I will start accepting clients into my business that combines faith with fitness.  It combines body movement and nutrition coaching along with personal development and finding out why you struggle in this area.  I found so much freedom this last year and, while I’m still working out the kinks for my own body, I can’t wait to start helping others find that freedom also.

I’ve also discovered that I need accountability.  That is why I feel the need to post pics like those above.  I feel that I need to share that I am, indeed, doing the work to get to where I want to be.  I feel that by posting in my uncomfortable place (look), and sharing things that aren’t always comfortable, some of the places that are still broken in me will start to heal.  And maybe, just maybe, I will inspire someone to step outside of their comfort zone too.

Progress is made in the uncomfortable.  CHANGE is accomplished in the uncomfortable.  Community is formed when someone can look at you being brave and feel something in them that cries out to be brave as well.  We were built for community.

So, from now on, get ready to see some unflattering pics of me (that I resolve to take ONCE….not 10 til I get the one that is just right).  Get ready to read some uncomfortable realizations.  And, can I ask you to get ready to be brave as well?  To share your struggles, hurts, victories, lightbulb moments?  To reach out to those that are headed in the same direction as you are or maybe those that have already been down that path and can help you see the light at the end of the tunnel?  That change really is possible?

My goals for this year seem lofty yet attainable.  Stick around as I prepare to get comfortable being uncomfortable.  It’s going to be a fun ride!  My shirt in the pics says Freedom Fighter and that is what I intend to be!

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